Relations in our household are back on a strong footing after a rocky few days (which explains my silence, dear readers – sorry).
Boyfriend Maiyuu was already upset about the amount of time I was spending with Ball and his slum family.
However, a new argument developed soon afterwards about my moods...and Maiyuu's moods...as neither of us was talking much to the other.
‘I have a headache,’ I claimed. That was an excuse, but it did not buy me much time. ‘We need to forgive each other before we can start again,’ I said.
Maiyuu was also upset about my dictatorial attitudes. When last month’s power bill came in, we gasped: B4,000! I can’t recall it ever being so high. Since then we have been trying to ration our use of the air con machines. ‘On for two hours, off for one,’ suggested Maiyuu. I agreed.
Earlier, the battle over the air con had threatened to become another issue. For my liking, he uses it too much. From his point of view, I am being unreasonable. It is the hottest part of the year, and difficult to walk even 50m outside without starting to melt.
When Maiyuu is in good form, he operates on a high level. This morning, by the time I woke, he had been out to the supermarket. He cleaned the floor with a new half mop/half broom tool he has bought.
As I write, he is making us a chicken dish for breakfast. When his morning’s work is done he will retire to the couch in front of the TV, and put on the air.
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For the last few days, I have been ordering Thai food from a place on the footpath close to my work.
Every day, the Thai family which runs it unpacks the metal tables, coolers, boxes and what have you, transforming what is a grotty sidewalk, next to a railway track and running under a grimy overhead bridge, into a lively eating space.
I had walked past the shop every day for months when I decided I should give it a go. I placed an order, and took a seat while I waited. Half a dozen young people were working there, I noticed, including two young guys.
One, tallish and handsome, was straight. The other, squarish looking and cute rather than handsome, was gay.
The gay one chatted to me shyly as the girls looked on, giggling.
A middle-aged Thai from work turned up one day. He must have seen the youngsters fussing over me. I hope he felt jealous...only foreigners get this much curious attention.
Last night, the woman who cooks asked me a question. She popped it even before I could decide what I wanted to eat.
‘Can the young one have your phone number?’ she asked.
I knew which one she meant: the gay guy.
Thais often ask friends or family to request phone numbers on their behalf, presumably so they won''t suffer rejection if the answer is No.
I sat down and wrote it out, as the girls looked on. They had been briefed on the assignment, and asked me questions: my name, where I come from...
The young one’s name is Noom. He was dressed in a patterned, collared shirt, singlet, and smart patterned shorts. I wondered why he looked so good; normally he wears simple black shorts, and a black or white T-shirt.
‘I am going back to my home province of Roi Et. I came here to Bangkok to help during the mid-term break,’ he said.
‘What do you study?’ I asked, thinking he might be university-age.
‘I am in Mor 6, the final year of secondary school. When I finish, I want to study teaching at university, though where I end up will depend on how well I do in entrance exams,’ he said.
Sigh...why can’t the Lord send me someone in his early 20s for a change?
Later in the night, I was walking home from work when I noticed the shop was still open.
I crossed the road to talk to the woman who had asked me earlier for my number.
She was probably in his mid-30s, and looked like she might be a Mum. They work hard: on busy days, the shop opens at 2pm, and won't close until about 12 hours later.
‘Noom took the bus home to Roi Et earlier tonight, and won’t be back until October,’ she said.
So, that’s why he was dressed up: for the overnight bus back to Esan. How sweet. He was interested in staying in contact, she said.
‘I will carry on turning up every night, ordering as I did before, and if he wants to get in contact, he can call,’ I said, saying my goodbyes.
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Ball’s mother called as I was heading home.
She was somewhere else – possibly playing her HiLo – but her son had just been to see her.
I can just imagine what prompted the visit to his mother, and why she called me.
Ball wanted to suck on the teat of the brown stuff, and Mum wanted me to pay.
‘I will drop in,’ I said.
When I arrived at his place, I stood at the door observing, as I normally do.
Inside, Ball’s younger brother Mr B and Tum, the boyfriend of elder sister Kae, were seated, chatting.
Ball, wearing clingy shorts and a T-shirt, emerged from his mother’s room opposite where I stood in the doorway.
‘Come in,’ he said.
I had second thoughts. ‘No, thanks...it’s okay,’ I said.
I walked the rest of the way home.
An hour after I arrived at my place, Mum called, but after half a dozen rings thought better of it. The phone fell silent for the night.
Someone has to learn to say no to this young man, or at least push him out the door to look for work.
He’s chosen the hottest time of the year to quit his job as a security guard, at an air-con office in Silom.
I don’t expect he’ll find anything else in a hurry, so the rot will carry on.
23 comments:
ReplyDeleteMichael Lomker9 May 2010 at 19:09
One thing that I do envy is that you get to meet regular gay guys. That's something that is difficult for tourists to manage.
Getting quite cynical regarding Ball...
Your posts always have good eye candy but the lad in the Army uniform is going to be my wallpaper for a bit. lol.
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Anonymous9 May 2010 at 19:30
yeh...the soldier photo was a good one...if you really want to be happy change your attitude towards balls family and friends...dont care who is workin and who is "leaching"...western eyes western demands...chill and observe....save your $$ for aircon to your chef, assistant , confident and long time friend...love your blog...love your spin on things...your good writer
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Anonymous9 May 2010 at 21:59
Noom's shopping for a student grant...he is not stupid.
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Anonymous9 May 2010 at 22:13
More stories like that of Noom please. It's what you used to do. - Ian
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Bkkdreamer10 May 2010 at 08:41
Michael: I should get out and meet people more often. I have been so taken up with Ball and his family that I have forgotten that the world is a big and interesting place.
Anon 1: Thank you for the compliment. Increasingly, I do just as you suggest: I watch, and enjoy the moment for what it is.
There is little point in my worrying about things...who cares what the farang thinks anyway? I am also more inclined to keep my money to myself.
The family is badly in need of body towels...the ones they use after showers are threadbare and awful. Where once I would have gone out to buy some, now a voice in my head says: Why bother?
Ian: Thank you. I will try.
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Anonymous10 May 2010 at 11:52
I know you don't spend serious money on Ball and his family.. but if forced to choose, I think you should spend money on your cook and friend's comfort before you buy anymore food, clothes, trinkets and swill for a gold-bricking acquaintance.
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hendrikbkk10 May 2010 at 19:04
On utility bills: the first time I got a waterbill when I moved to Thailand, I was a bit suprised, thousands of bath.. As it was my first time living in a tropical country, I assumed water was expensive, so I jsut payed up. One day a Thai friend saw my water bill and asked if I was providing water for the whole street. Turned out, my watermains was leaking 24/7 just behind the watermeter. After fixing the problem my bill (or bin as thai say) was just a few hundred bath.... Lesson learned!
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JT11 May 2010 at 09:54
ReplyDeleteAnon #1 wrote "..if you really want to be happy change your attitude towards balls family and friends...dont care who is workin and who is "leaching"...western eyes western demands...chill and observe....save your $$ for aircon to your chef, assistant , confident and long time friend."
I've been critical of you in the past and I admit that perhaps I shouldn't have judged you with 'Western eyes'. I echo what Anon#1 wrote, it makes sense.
I love Thailand, it might be hard for a tourist like me to meet a guy, but boy when I do, he's usually pretty HOT!
I'm glad that Maiyuu is beginning to voice his position and reinforce his commitment to you. No ideas come to mind on how to skirt boredom in general.
Ball & family, perhaps friendship is there, but monetary issues will always trump, with most Thai's.
All the best and I apologize if i was hard on you in the past.
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Bkkdreamer11 May 2010 at 19:14
Anon: All Ball's Mum appears to expect from me is that I will look after expenses when I am with her son, which usually means paying for the brown stuff. She seldom asks me for anything else.
Often I will get us started, and Mum will chip in something for nibbles.
I contributed more when he was working, but that was because Mum was giving him B100 a day to take to work. She had to find a similar amount to give to his girlfriend to meet her own work expenses.
Now they are no longer working (a temporary state of affairs, I hope), she is no longer shouldering such a heavy burden.
While they were working, Mum rented cellphones on their behalf. She has now taken the phones back to the shop.
We bought a cheap bike for the girlfriend to take to work every day, to save money on motorcycle taxis. It did not get much use. they may have parked it upstairs, where I seldom venture; or Mum may have sold it.
I miss the days when Ball was working in Silom, as Mum and I would both look forward to talking to him at work. I would turn up at her place about lunch, and we'd call him on my phone and have a chat.
Now, he's at home all day, and too 'available', if that's the right word. I do not get so many chances to talk to Mum alone any more.
I seldom visit during the day, as I don't want to get in the way...Ball is usually fussing over his idle girlfriend, or fussing over the toddlers, to whom he is devoted.
I encourage them both to go out and apply for work, and will carry on doing so until they have found something.
However, the jobs probably will not last, because of their casual nature. If they are not happy in one job, they will quit until they find something else.
I find the lack of stability and predictability upsetting, but then I am getting old. Young ones don't appear to mind, as long as Mum is there to meet expenses if they are sitting at homre all day with no work to do.
If I was them, I would want to find work as quickly as possible, to ease the burden on Mum, and for the sake of their own independence. But as I say, young ones do not always think the same way I do.
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Bkkdreamer11 May 2010 at 19:31
ReplyDeleteJT: I am always pleased to welcome back readers who have crossed over from the Dark Side, and are again willing to extend me the benefit of the doubt.
Ball is one of the most beautiful young men I have ever met...I admit it! However, I also like what's on the inside, not just what I can see.
I want to make him the best young man that he can be, by working on his problems (lack of confidence), and making the most of his assets (a big heart).
Everyone has his own body towel, and some are looking ratty. I want to buy them some new ones.
I will have to look at prices first.
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Anonymous11 May 2010 at 20:40
Mum seems to take care of expenses for the family. Where does Mum get her money?
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Anonymous12 May 2010 at 17:44
Why u do not post Ball's Photo? It would be nice to see the most beautiful boy u ever saw...
Fran
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Bkkdreamer12 May 2010 at 18:31
Anon: Gambling, lending, and her other children.
Her eldest son, who is in the army, sends her his wages every month. Her daughter also hands over her pay.
Mum is also a lender. People in the neighbourhood who owe her money hand over interest payments regularly. She makes B100-B300 a day from this source.
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Bkkdreamer12 May 2010 at 18:34
Fran: I can't. Mr Ball is entitled to some privacy. I feel guilty enough as it is, writing about his life, and one day I hope to stop, as I would rather protect him and his family than expose them to the scrutiny of foreigners who just do not understand.
I am sorry if that sounds harsh, but they are my main priority rather than blog readers.
Maiyuu is my chief concern... I also worry about what he would feel if I wrote too much about our relationship.
Sometimes, the more I say, the less readers seem to understand...or the more hostile they become, at any rate.
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Anonymous12 May 2010 at 21:37
' the scrutiny of foreigners who just do not understand.' .. LOL !! yeah.. like mysteries of a co-dependent/ sugar daddy relationship are beyond our knowing.
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Anonymous12 May 2010 at 21:52
You have a good point in trying to protec Maiyuu and Ball's privacy by not posting their photos, though you must admit you post a lot of their private life every day. I am sure we all would like to see their photos and that their privacy would not be compromised further, but obviously is your decision. We will continue to follow your interesting saga. Take care, Fran
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Anonymous12 May 2010 at 23:50
ReplyDeleteBKK: Most of your responders are not looking for understanding. Their motivation is to express their own understanding. When your comments conflict with their understanding, they are more than happy to explain the errors of your ways. That is their primary motivation when they post a comment. I assume you blog because to some degree it feeds your soul to share. On the other hand if you are hoping to enlighten the masses of your responders, I'm afraid it is a sisyphean task. The silent majority of your readers enjoy your blogging. Some even realize that no blog provides enough information for the reader to use as a base to proffer life skill advice to the blogger. Those that do offer such advice usually do not do it out of the goodness of their heart to benefit the blogger but to stroke their own massive ego.
Silicon Farang
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Bkkdreamer13 May 2010 at 05:05
Anon:
Yes, yes, yes. Change the record, mate.
Fran: I post far too many details of their private lives.
Readers might be pleased to know that Ball's family gets a fair share of the Google cheque which I earn from clicks on the advertising hosted by this blog.
However, that doesn't allay my feelings of guilt.
Silicon farang: Well put. For some cynics, blogs are just another outlet to air their prejudices.
In the internet age, every idiot wants to express an opinion. I am wasting my time trying to win them over, or even trying to explain.
I blog because I enjoy writing; because telling these stories helps me understand some of the personal issues involved; and to get feedback from readers, no matter how short-sighted and ignorant some of them may be.
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Anonymous13 May 2010 at 16:11
it still baffles me why you are so concerned about who is working and who isnt...your disrupting the natural order of the "lazy no good slum life"...nothing your gonna do or pay for is going to change these dynamics of this family...this is their normal life...it take a certain type of teenager that looks around and says ..im out of here...and takes school serious and gets out of the slums.....if ball was this type he would be studying english will anything he could get his hands on and keep a job and figure out how to better his social condition....if you continue to instill these western ideals on this family ..you will get frustated and they will look at you as a meddling pain in the ass....trust me
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Anonymous13 May 2010 at 17:45
... who's to say.. and what's to prove they don't think Bkk is a 'meddling pain in the ass' now ? ... that's an easy score for a 100 Bht note.
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Bkkdreamer13 May 2010 at 17:54
Anon: You are getting carried away. I am not trying to instil Western ideas in this family any more than they would want to observe them themselves.
I use those ideals as a yardstick to measure the extent of my own involvement. If they persistently fail to measure up to what I would regard as a worthy cause, I have to assess the extent to which I want to carry on spending so much time over there.
I don't have to encourage them to adopt my values. I expect some of them to be there anyway, as they are universal...a desire to build a better future, gain independence, and dare I say it, even work for its own sake.
Mum may want her kids to get work; they might be reluctant. In that regard, how are they so different from a Western family?
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Bkkdreamer13 May 2010 at 17:56
ReplyDeleteAnon 2: Why do you miserable types even bother with Thailand? You seem to hate its people so much.
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Anonymous13 May 2010 at 18:33
Bkk.. I don't hate your Thai friends.. I think they're very resourceful.. and you're the resource.
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