Thai-style ya dong |
It's Friday, Ball's last day at work for the week.
Tonight, he can toss back the brown stuff with abandon, as he has two days of rest stretching ahead.
Actually, he's been drinking all week, as he usually does. It's just that on Fridays, he can do it without worrying about whether he will rise in time for work the next day.
Wednesday night was bad for Mr Ball, as he spent hours at carer R’s ya dong stand.
Ball called me just before I finished work. I dropped in and stayed for an hour.
Ball has to get up at 6am to get to work on time, and this was already 11.30pm. I urged R to let Ball go home.
‘This is my place, and I’ll drink with whoever I like,’ said R. ‘Anyone who doesn’t like it can go home.’
R had abandoned any sense of responsibility towards his customers. It was late, and he had made no sales in hours. But he refused to close, as he was having too good a time tossing back his own ya dong.
‘I don’t need you to tell me that, thanks. Let him go. This has gone on long enough,’ I said.
Moments before, Ball’s girlfriend Jay emerged, holding his baby sister, Nong Fresh.
R, who is older than Jay, sweet-talked her into letting Ball stay a while longer.
Ball was determined to stay anyway, as he likes to think he is boss.
I asked Ball to go home. He ignored me, too, so I gave up and went home to bed.
R held out his hand for me to shake by way of farewell, but I was too disgusted with his behaviour. I ignored it.
‘Shake his hand!’ Ball slurred.
I ignored him too.
The next day, as I sat by Mum’s side at her place, she told me that Ball did make it to work that morning, but only just.
'I had to force him to get up. They had no one to stand in for him as security guard, so he had no choice but to go.
'It was so hard getting him up. I almost told him to go live with you instead, as I am no longer interested,’ said Mum.
So, Ball did his duty, and went to work.
It was shortly after midday, and we decided to call the Charmed One, to see how he was doing.
Because he had forgotten to charge his phone, we called someone else at the office who Mum knows.
She went in search of Ball, and found him in the cleaner’s quarters, sleeping during his lunch break.
Mum talked to him briefly, and handed the phone to me.
‘How are you feeling today?’ I asked.
‘I have a headache,’ he said weakly. ‘But stock up the fridge for me, and I will feel better,’ he joked.
I visited a shop at the corner of the alleyway, and bought two beers for safekeeping until he came home.
The idea was not to encourage his bad habits, but to keep him away from the ya dong stand just 50m away.
His mother could do with help financially...she hurt her ear the other day, but decided not to see a doctor, probably because she can't afford it.
Any money I give her to help pay for Mr B's imbibing habits frees up money which she can spend on something else.
It’s risky, but so are most gambles. We can but do these things on faith.
16 comments:
ReplyDeleteAnonymous9 April 2010 at 06:25
Chef Maiyuu’s is reduced to a one liner so sad
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Bkkdreamer9 April 2010 at 06:36
There's nothing much more to say, sorry. Life might perk up a little early next week, when I get paid.
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Anonymous9 April 2010 at 10:31
Glad to see that your awareness of Ball's blossoming alcholism is ramping up. Hopeful sign. However, you need to looses the constant excuse making: "he gets stressed out and needs 'the brown stuff' (interesting that substance abuser always name their poison something 'cute'-in the US meth is 'tina') or he is tired from work, so he needs "the brown stuff". Hiding from life in a bottle gets you nothing but a bad liver and more problems.
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Joyce Lau9 April 2010 at 10:57
Usually, I refrain from judgment on this site. But you asked for it right in the headline!
So here it goes -- I don't think you should invest in this ya dong stand or give money to a guy who won't help himself -- who seems to be lazy, disorganized, irresponsible and self-centered. He's the kind of person who will take money away from his sick mother to buy booze. If you are worried about her ear, then give the money directly for a doctor's appt.
I know situations like this are more complex and emotional than they seem on the outside.
Of the couples I know in Thailand -- gay and straight -- many involve a "richer" white guy caring for a local Thai wife or boyfriend, whether it's giving them a home, or paying off school fees, or supporting their families.
In one case, a friend is helping a partner be trained as a spa attendant -- but the person he's helping seems motivated and thankful. I don't feel that's the case here.
Of course, you do what you think is best. That's just my two cents.
See? It's always trouble when you ask for advice.
;)
P.S. Fish fingers in a roti doesn't SOUND like it'd be any good, but it looks pretty appetizing, in a fatty sort of way.
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Anonymous9 April 2010 at 13:58
Above anon and Joyce, those are solid observations and advice from both of you. To comments like yours, usually BKK responds with any number of the time-worn excuses he keeps at the ready. Some of which are; that if Ball doesn't get to drink beer, he'll drink ya dong, which is worse for him because he stays up later at night and won't make it to work the next day. Like going to bed in time to rise for work isn't an acceptable option in Ball''s situation.. because he's somehow relentlessly stressed. Ball needs money to get to and from his job, because for inexplicable cultural reasons, teenage Thai men can't walk for an hour to get to work. Notice how Bkk mentioned that until he's paid, the menu options at his place are limited.. yet he might write paragraphs about his different plans to ensure that Ball gets something to drink and eat every day. Regardless of what he writes, I believe BKK's good intentions will rarely encompass the logical.. or ever extend far beyond what's necessary to a provide him regular access to Ball.
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Asia in Australia9 April 2010 at 18:25
ReplyDeleteI am sorry but what other reaction from readers could you expect? You are really asking for the readers to criticise you and you know it yourself.
Most readers make some valid points but instead of considering them you just either flee into excuses and self-irony or tell us that we know nothing about Thailand.
I wish you good luck with this Ball saga and hope you find some path between constantly meddling in Ball's life and angrily walking away when you "get bored of them" because they dont do things the way you want.
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Bkkdreamer9 April 2010 at 19:09
Anon: I use the term 'brown stuff' because Google's Adsense does not like too many mentions of the 'A' word , or the 'B' word for that matter. I might get away with only two mentions in a post before it pulls my advertising.
Joyce: I love your stuff, and your comments are always welcome.
Actually, the roti was delicious, and I hope Maiyuu makes me another one soon. Why is it the best food goes in a flash? It takes only 10secs to eat roti. Then all we have is memories.
I am not sure if Ball is ungrateful. He is just himself, which means he doesn't say thanks, doesn't ask for anything, doesn't call, and on some occasions, won't even bother with 'Hello' or 'Goodbye'.
He leaves almost all communication with me to his mother (other than those times when we are together, of course).
Anon: It seems you want me to make excuses for my own behaviour rather than trying to explain Ball's own.
I have written enough about what motivates me. Ball is a hobby, and in the early phases I usually devote myself intensely to hobbies, so I become good at them.
Asia in Australia: The post is what is known as a 'wind up'. I was surprised to get your response, but it is welcome nonetheless.
All of us should seek a middle path, which might look like indifference, but is usually better for our own state of mind than extremes of involvement or detachment.
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Bkkdreamer10 April 2010 at 01:49
According to you, I am 'constantly meddling' in his life; the other day, some reader said I was 'interfering'.
Is this because he is straight, because he lives in a slum, or both?
A few years ago I saw a young Thai, aged 20, who was living with his parents. Unike Ball, he actively sought out my company, though he, too, claimed he was straight.
Also unlike Ball, he came from a middle-class background and was attending university when I met him.
Not once, in all the months I wrote about that saga, did any reader complain I was interfering, or meddling. Many felt sorry for long-suffering Maiyuu, but that's another matter.
So, why the pious concern?
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Anonymous10 April 2010 at 06:05
ReplyDeleteBut BKK, I believe that your young Thai friend from a few years ago didn't receive neck rubs or get his legs coated in an ache easing cream.. or get his scabs picked by you. Did you notice and write about his underwear wearing habits? Did you buy him clothes or stroke his hair when you sat close to him ? Did you show up at his job or school to bring him food ? I'd bet not.. and that' probably why no one wrote that you were meddling in that young man's life. You've written that when Ball is sober he's less attentive to you, Your readers can see that you've used Ball's apparent need to drink as a way to gain access into his daily life. Even though you know Ball's father died of alcohol related illnesses and Ball most likely inherited a genetic tendency to drink, you continue to give him money to quench his thirst for beer and ya dong. Considered on that basis, your interactions with Ball seem very self-serving and irresponsible.. particularly since you're the adult in this relationship. Subsequently it appears to readers like me, that you're meddling in the boy's life in order to satisfy your own desires.
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Bkkdreamer10 April 2010 at 06:28
You really have no idea how to read English, do you?
Irony and humour do not go amiss in good writing, and even turn up occasionally in these blog posts.
On my list of sins and assorted moral/ethical lapses, I have
1. Picked his scabs
2. Commented on his underwear
3. Massaged his legs
Well, bugger me. I have been bad!
I saw that young man from three years ago for more than 12 months. What do you think we did in all that time...just gaze into each other's eyes? He was just one year older than Ball is now.
You also claim that I am preying on Ball's weakness for the brown stuff to get access to him.
I have known Ball and his family for four months. If I was really acting with sinister intent, why have I made so little progress in getting my way with him? His bed is crying out for me...come, come!
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lance10 April 2010 at 08:08
dont fool yourself....there are many many many "money-boys" in thailand that are attending the universities and are from middleclass families...they want a friendship with "sugar-aunties (uncles)"..
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Bkkdreamer10 April 2010 at 08:15
How did we get on to this topic? I don't understand what point you are trying to make.
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Anonymous10 April 2010 at 17:46
BKK you have brought this deluge of whiners upon yourself. They will only be satisfied when you join an NGO and save the thais from themselves. Until then, the rest of us await your further exploits, ahem, adventures with the locals.
The whiners probably would have enjoyed your tales with 'E', if my recollections serve me right he occasionally was violent toward you when he thought he wasn't receiving enough attention.
Silicon Farang
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Bkkdreamer10 April 2010 at 19:19
ReplyDeleteSilicon Farang:
Yes, that word 'exploits' must be used with care, as there are many dim-witted hand-wringers among us who may think too much.
Some of my remarks, as I am sure you know, are intended as wind-ups; my reference to Ball being a mere hobby, for example.
How can these people not see it? I am inviting readers to take a poke at me, yes; and I am also having a go at them, too. But I am also having a go at myself.
As for E, yes, your memory serves you well. He was possessive and demanding. If he did not get his way, he would hit me. I don't know what the duller-headed of my readers would make of him. Most would probably think I had brought it on myself.
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Joyce Lau13 April 2010 at 00:19
"Then all we have is memories."
Hahahaha. That's a very romantic thing to say about a fish finger roti!
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Bkkdreamer13 April 2010 at 06:21
We all need a bit of romance in this life. God knows I do.
I spend most of my spare time fantasising about what could be. Nothing ever turns out the way I expect.
Where's my bloody prince? I'm still waiting.
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