Kae did manage to get her hands on her younger brother Ball’s lustrous hair after all.
The other night when I turned up, I witnessed a dramatic change: Ball’s sister had put gold highlights through his locks.
I had seen Kae wandering about with straggly gold bits in her own mid-back length hair the day before.
She wore them down the side of her face. I asked Kae what she was doing.
‘They are gold highlights,’ she said.
A day later, I turned up to find that she had put the gold stuff through Ball’s hair as well.
Now he wears a bleached look.
I don’t like it, and neither does he. So many Thai youngsters get their mops turned gold these days, it just looks cheap.
Ball's hair rises thick above his head like a crown. He only recently had it cut.
Ball reckons both the hair cut and the hair-streaking episode went wrong.
Every few minutes, he runs his hands through his hair, wondering when it will grow long again.
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‘Ball has just arrived home,’ his Mum told me on the phone.
I was walking towards her place, so asked for permission to pay a visit.
‘I’d like to catch him in his uniform, and see what it looks like for once,’ I said.
Mum told me days ago how handsome her son looks in his security guard’s uniform, but I had never seen it.
‘Come on, then!’ she said enthusiastically.
I arrived moments too late. By the time I arrived, he had already changed into a T-shirt and a pair of shorts.
The next day, however, I did get to see Mr Ball in his uniform – and at his workplace, no less.
The red shirt protesters who have taken over Ratchaprasong intersection in the city’s shopping district fanned out on a mobile rally to other parts of town yesterday, including Silom, Sathorn, and Rama 4.
Ball works in Silom. I thought I had better take Mr Ball extra food and supplies just in case he had trouble getting out of the place.
In the end, I needn’t have worried, as yesterday was also a public holiday. The streets were deserted, and by the time he finished work, the red shirt convoy had already passed.
I found the building, and took the lift to the 15th floor.
I stepped out, and found a solitary desk and a small table, where the security guard sits – but no Ball.
He was sitting on a sofa beyond a set of doors, in what looks like a receptionist area shared by tenants on that floor. A few builders wandered about...otherwise, the place was empty.
He gestured me over.
‘How did you get here?’ he asked, looking shocked.
‘By motorcycle,’ I said, handing over a bag of food. I bought him eggs, chicken - anything I thought would fill his tummy.
‘How is Mum? Where is she?’ he asked.
‘I didn’t contact your Mum before I came,’ I said.
‘By the way, your uniform looks great.’
It is dark blue. He wears a short-sleeved jacket, and formal trousers. No belt, so his gaudy yellow boxers spill over the top.
‘Please wear a belt...it will improve the look,’ I said.
‘Have the red shirts passed by?’ he asked.
‘I saw them on the way in. You should have no problem getting home,’ I said.
Ball flipped nervously through a comic book as we sat chatting. I realised he didn’t want me there, so after talking for a couple of minutes I left.
I caught a motorcycle taxi home. I passed a small convoy of red shirts on trucks on my way back, just as I had on my way there.
My motorcycle taxi driver, whose hair stank, kept a pair of red foot clappers in the basket attached to the front of his bike.
As we passed the red shirt trucks, he called out to get their attention.
His hand clappers, symbol of red shirt resistance, kept falling into the basket where no one could see them.
Several times, he leant forward on his bike to restore them to upright position. The bike wobbled and swayed, and I gripped the back of my seat in the hope we would not lose our balance and fall.
He didn’t care what I thought. While I was a mere passenger, he was a man on a red mission, making a political statement.
By the time I left his bike – shaken, and grateful we had made it back in one piece – I wanted to take his wretched foot clappers and shove them up his black hole.
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Mr Ball is worried about what people in his slum neighbourhood think of his farang friend (me).
It's not that they reckon he's gay...they don't care about that. It's that he might be selling himself to me, which for him is an even bigger insult to his manhood and social standing.
We were drinking at carer R's ya dong stand. A woman friend walked past; Ball went to talk to her down the alleyway.
I couldn’t hear them. But according to Ball, she saw me, and asked Ball what had happened to his manhood.
Moments later Ball's girlfriend came out to fetch Ball back home; in her view, he'd drank enough.
I agreed he should go back. At first he was reluctant, and talked about sneaking out again.
I didn't want that, so told him I would walk him home myself to make sure he arrived there.
'I am already seen in a poor light around here; now you want to escort me home as well? 'he asked.
I gave Ball B30 so he could buy himself an extra meal at work. His mother gives him just B100 a day, which is enough for only two meals, a cartoon book, and a motorcycle taxi to work.
Previously, I have been giving B150 to his mother every week for this purpose, but she has started keeping it to meet other family expenses, meaning the benefit did not go directly to Ball.
At first he wouldn't take it, but after thinking about it, he changed his mind.
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ReplyDeletelance6 April 2010 at 22:48
respectfully...this is simple...he is new at this job where coworkers are just trying to figure out who the new guy is all about and here an older farang shows up with a snack bag...he thumbed through the magazine cuz he was very much not happy to see you there.....he is 19 and he cares very much about his reputation.....yes you could be an innocent friend,,,,but thais love good gossip...he is doll like, you much older what do you think their tongues arent wagging ....
you say you will not let this affect your friendly visits ...but for his sake maybe show up during times which are more comfortable for him
also your too wrapped up on these handouts...why dont you stop handing out cash and just bring a pizza from time to time and build your friendship sans $$$ concerns....then your answer should prevail...i do think you are liked but you can be an embarrasment if you dont arrive at proper times and places...i remember mr ball giving you a request that he is the man of the house and dont show up without him being their...good luck...dont b an atm..u dont have 2
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hendrikbkk7 April 2010 at 01:22
Yes, don't show your pretty face at work, that is too much! Same as your mum or dad meet you in front of the school. I remember my dad collecting me from a school disco at midnight sharp in a raincoat for god sake!
Those golden locks, is it Korean style? I know Thais are crazy all things Korean.
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Bkkdreamer7 April 2010 at 05:10
Lance: I knew he wasn't happy to see me there, and I have told him it would be the first and last visit.
Hendrik: It's probably Korean. Where teen fashion is concerned, everything is, these days.
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Anonymous7 April 2010 at 15:54
You wrote "I felt sorry for him, but I won't withdraw from his life just because of what a few rag-tag slum dwellers think."
Those rag tag slum dwellers are his people and very much a part of the world he lives in, not you. If you really cared about him, you would take that into consideration. Also, a young man, he's vulnerable to the opinions of his community.
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Bkkdreamer7 April 2010 at 18:24
Yet another lecture. Lighten up, Anon. I have spoken to Mr Ball, and he is unworried.
He claims that the thought of what the few souls in his office that day (two builders, one other security guard) might think when they saw us together didn't cross his mind.
I didn't expect I would have to enter the office at all, as his desk is by the lift. I had anticipated dropping off the bag, and leaving as quickly as I had come. In the event, it didn't turn out that way, but it's not the end of the world.
Of course I take his feelings into account. Ultimately, if he didn't want me around, I'd have to withdraw.
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Robb7 April 2010 at 23:58
i think u might be hurting urself and the boy indirectly with what you've been doing.
just imho anyway.
nevertheless, don't be discouraged in whatever u do, ok?
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Bkkdreamer8 April 2010 at 04:43
ReplyDeleteI worry the most about his drinking. The rest is secondary.
He's young and resilient, but I don't want him slipping into bad habits now which may last a lifetime.
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Anonymous8 April 2010 at 13:00
Bkk.. you write that 'you don't want him slipping into bad habits'.. but you give Ball drinking money just the same. Aren't you just going down Ball's path of least resistance ? so that you're assured to get access to him ? No one who regularly reads your posts thinks that you only have this kid's best interests at heart. From the beginning, lust has been defining your interactions with Ball.
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Anonymous8 April 2010 at 16:02
Not just lust, anon. Class jumping is evident too. When a working or lower class farang goes to a country like Thailand, they jump classes and get treated like visiting gentry by the local peasants. Nobody discusses this. I'd like to hear some observations on what this is like.
wwqvd
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Bkkdreamer8 April 2010 at 18:05
Anon: Oh, yes, it's all about access and lust...how could it be otherwise, for you moralising Thai experts?
I have set out my position repeatedly on these pages, but few of you moralisers appear to listen.
While I find him attractive, the relationship has long ago passed the point where I want my way with him...I am not just not interested.
He has his own girlfriend, and for the most part they get along well.
He is also still a teen, with all the revolting habits which teens possess...but he doesn't care, and I don't see why I should, either. Just let the lad be!
The irony of that last remark is that not a few readers would like me to leave Ball be, too.
I am an uncle-like figure to Ball and his girlfriend Jay; Jay even calls me that. As an uncle, I am expected to behave in a certain way. I can't just jump his bones, even if I wanted too, which I don't.
You said: 'No one who regularly reads your posts thinks that you only have this kid's best interests at heart.'
And you know this how?
Wwqvd:
Class jumping! Shock, horror!
That's a new morals crime I can add to my list.
How patronising you sound. You assume the farang is smart and calculating, and the Thais so dumb and submissive that they emerge on the losing end every time.
No relationship here is so one-sided. For a start, the farang has to know the language, and even if he does have a reasomable grasp of it, be willing to embarrass himself regularly as he encounters aspects of the Thais' lives which he still finds perplexing.
I daresay it's an experience you will never have, as you can merely criticise from the sidelines.
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Anonymous8 April 2010 at 18:34
Bkk.. passive.. sublimated lust is still lust. Why do thoughts of Ball and Ball's family.. and job.. and welfare.. and clothing.. and diet.. and health.. and waking and sleeping.. and working life spin endlessly through your mind ? 'cause you care ? get real.. it's 'cause you crave him.
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Bkkdreamer8 April 2010 at 18:47
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If one form of lust or another really does motivate my actions, I am not much good at turning it into action, am I?
We can have this argument forever...there's no point to it, as it doesn't take us any further forward.
Look out for the post I put up later today, on how to curb Ball's drinking habits - by buying him still more of the brown stuff!
You moralisers among my readers will love it.
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Anonymous8 April 2010 at 20:18
BKK, my question was neutral in tone. Your response tells a great deal about your own thoughts and emotions regarding the subject.
I hope you will tell more about that.
wwqvd
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Anonymous8 April 2010 at 20:39
'You moralizers ... will love it.' Good ! 'cause I haven't loved much lately.
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Bkkdreamer8 April 2010 at 20:52
wwqvd:
Your language skills aren't up to it, mate. You are in danger of becoming a plaything of this blog's author.
Anon:
My God, is that a sense of humour I detect?
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Anonymous8 April 2010 at 21:25
wwqvd:
pray tell how one distinguishes between upper class 'getting treated like visiting gentry by the local peasants' and lower/working class 'getting treated like visiting gentry by the local peasants'?
For us class clue less readers, exactly what did BKK's response supposedly reveal about his thoughts on class?
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ReplyDeleteAnonymous9 April 2010 at 11:28
Anon, ok, I'll bite, since BKK won't reply honestly.
BKK's response said more about his defensive emotions than about his thoughts on class. I suspect he has a thin skin, especially regarding his homosexual exploits.
This is unusual for a Brit. Brits usually play the old stiff upper lip routine and can be quite harsh in their friendly teasing of one another, with no one taking lasting offense. BKK takes lasting offense, it seems, at the very slightest criticism. He has mentioned his mother before but refused to say more. I wonder if it was his mother or teasing at school that left him this way.
I am not the Anon who so harshly criticizes him here, I always sign my initials, but maybe he thinks that I am you, Anon, or another Anon.
In his retort to me, he said he thought I sounded patronising. Maybe Bkk would like to explain in his own words why the more mention of the class subject should make him feel patronised to.
He also characterized a farang as smart and calculating vs Thais as dumb and submissive. From what I have read of Thai bar girls ripping off farangs, I'd suggest he may have the positions reversed there, but never mind. Very likely there is a little of both in each position. But this does not directly answer the question of class.
The silliest thing Bkk says in his defensive post is to suggest that class jumping by visiting slums is an "experience (I) will never have, as (I) can merely criticise from the sidelines."
Come on now. To begin with, I was not criticizing. I was asking a topical question which might lead to an interesting discussion. There was no need for him to take offense.
More interestingly, Bkk seems by the above statement to directly suggest that by slumming, he imagines that he has raised his class, and taken part in an exclusive activity which makes him better than me.
I wonder why he thnks this. I hope he will explain in more detail.
Probably it's just for spite, like his later remarks about "language skills" and "plaything."
Slumming is class-elevating only by comparison.
It does not make you better than you were, it just makes you better than those around you.
When it is accompanied by giving money, does it become a noble effort like charity or making merit? Is that why Bkk gives money, to convince himself that he is more noble than if he were cheaply buying lustful exploitation of the poor?
Anyone of any class may take part in charitable activities to help their fellow man. This is not an exclusive activity known only to the higher classes. Or is it seen that way in Britain?
Maybe sexual exploitation of the poor is seen by Bkk as an upper class activity? The poor exploit one another, too, sexually and otherwise.
That's enough for now. If Bkk wants to reasonably discuss class in a blog post, that's up to him and I am glad to have provided an interesting talking point. Hopefull he can put aside his defensive reactions and take an honest interest in the subject beyond spiteful mudslinging.
wwqvd
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Anonymous9 April 2010 at 11:34
ReplyDeleteAlso Anon asked
pray tell how one distinguishes between upper class 'getting treated like visiting gentry by the local peasants' and lower/working class 'getting treated like visiting gentry by the local peasants'?
As that is your question, I'll leave it to you to think about it yourself and provide more thought on the matter. It is not what I asked.
wwqvd
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Bkkdreamer9 April 2010 at 18:50
WWQVD:
You said:
'He has mentioned his mother before but refused to say more. I wonder if it was his mother or teasing at school that left him this way.'
I see your arsenal of weapons is as solid and reliable as ever. My mother? Teasing at school?
I am disappointed. I thought you could have brought a little more to the party!
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